Emotional
And a bit hormonal (which isn't helping matters)
Button-bustin' pride
Stress
Gratitude
Love
Happiness
Sadness
Like a failure
Raw
Regrets
I'm not sure how I'm going to handle Thursday. My oldest child will be graduating high school. I've been weepy for days now, and while I am filled with pride in her accomplishments, I can't help but also feel like I have not done enough. Eighteen years cannot have gone by already. I'm not ready for her to be an adult.
I wish I had learned how to take a breath and enjoy every single minute; not worried so much about the small stuff. I wish I had learned to control my temper a bit more when I am stressed out, and not take it out on my children. I wish I had taken more time to play with them when they were little. I wish I had learned to savor each messy hand-print, because their hand will never be that little again.
I hope that I have taught them how to be strong, independent individuals. I hope that I have taught them how to have faith, and see the good in this world. I hope that I have taught them how to laugh at themselves, and enjoy life. I hope I have taught them how to be kind, and show respect for their fellow man.
This parenting stuff is hard... it's physically hard when they are little, and emotionally challenging when they get older. When they are little you can't wait to for them to get a little bigger, and when they are bigger, you wish that they could go back to being small. This is the hardest thing I've done in my life, but it's the most rewarding, as well.
I think I had better go buy some water-proof mascara. I don't see these tears stopping any time soon.
5 comments:
you hit it on the nail! I agree with you 110%! I'll be right behind you buying water-proof mascara. Hang in there!
I can't even imagine! You made me fast forward ten years to when that will be Grant! I'm sure you are feeling all those emotions and more! What's K doing next year?
Knowing we are done having kids, and the fact that has opened us to a whole new stage in life, that one stage is closed and over, has brought me some of these same feelings. I really dread the day when I face this same thing you are. So happy, so sad, makes me cry just thinking about it. :)
I have to say that is hard to believe. Good luck keeping all the emotions in check. That will be hard. She a great girl with a great Mom.
I would like to share a different perspective
Why do we women beat ourselves up??Why do we want to see what we think we didn't do??? instead of congratulation ourselves for a job well done?????
Kim, you were and are one of the greatest Moms I know. You weren't perfect any more than the rest of us aren't or weren't perfect.
What a wonderful accomplishment to have raised such a great young woman. She is one of kind, super great kid. You have tons to be proud about.
Just think, if we could go back and fix everything we think we did wrong, we would just make different mistakes. There will always be mistakes. there are no perfect mothers, just great ones who do the best they can under their circumstances and accomplish wonderful things and raise great kids along the way because of and despite mistakes.
I see a great young woman who is so much like her Mother. I am incredibly proud of both of you.
You grew to be a wonderful woman and a great Mom and so will she.
The two of you will now move into a new and equally wonderful phase of your relationship. No longer MOther and child but mother and adult daughter.
Let those tears be tears of joy and celebration.
There are great things yet to come.
It is OK to feel sadness and even some regret at how fast time has gone by but get over the failure part because it does not apply to you.
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